I hate when someone asks if I have a name picked out, or what names I’m considering, and then when I tell them the names, they say

"Really? That name?"
“No! You can’t name her that!”
“Oh no, use [insert name here] instead.”

I’m sorry, who is carrying this baby? Last time I checked, its my child, so telling me I CAN’T name her whatever I damn well please, is just stupid. The only person who has any say in her name is her father and me. Seeing as how we will be the ones hearing/saying her name more than anyone else, WE have to like the name. It doesn’t matter if you do.

Okay, rant over lol.

And just like that…The blonde hair is gone.

I miss it so much already! :(

It’s a girl!

Finally got my Panorama test results. All the abnormalities it tests for came back low risk and I’m having a baby girl. I knewwww it. I felt that it was a girl from the moment I found out I was pregnant. I can’t wait to meet my little princess. 💜

Halfway! Eeeeee!




19lbs baby born in Indonesia:


Ain’t no way. The baby would just stay in me until it grew up and I eventually became my child.

I think it’s a girl!

Out of the ER. I’m measuring perfectly and they think the discomfort is from not having enough fluids and braxton hicks.

The ultrasound ended up scaring me a bit because the tech took so long and kept going back to look at certain things.They aren’t allowed to say anything about what they’re seeing so it was kind of nerve wracking.

She did spend a bit of time down below so I got a lot of opportunity to see between the legs and I’m pretty positive i’m having a girl. It was all really clear and there was no little “turtle” there. Totally looked like girl parts. I’m not going to go around announcing it’s a girl yet, since my Panorama results should be in tomorrow or Monday, so i’ll know for sure. But yeahhhh, i’m no expert but with all the ultrasound pics i’ve looked at, i’m pretty confident it’s a little girl!

The whole reason I went to the ER was of course the pain, but also the fact that since the pain started, I hadn’t felt the baby move at all. For nearly 3 days. When i’ve had consistent movement every day for a few weeks now. So that really got to me and scared me. Turns out, right when I got that ultrasound the baby started kicking and has been really active since. 

So thanks a lot, little nugget! for making me look like an overly worried spaz!

I literally just had to teach an ER nurse how to use a fetal doppler.

My faith in this hospital has swirled even farther down the drain. 💩🚽

Gosh, it would be really great if,


Ugh. That office, these doctors, and the hospital as a whole is such a joke. God forbid someone have a pregnancy issue, because you’re definitely going to get ignored and have to sit in the equally as bad ER, all because the baby docs around here are all a waste and completely useless. 👎

Cannot believe i’m a week away from being halfway through this.

"Because lying to your kids about sex helps nobody. Telling them that sex is “only between mommies and daddies” is a lie that leads to confused, hormone charged teenagers. Telling them that sex is “only something that happens when two people love each other very much” is a lie that causes hormone charged teenagers to confuse “love” with “lust,” or “obsession.” It leads to leaps of logic like, “If I have sex with them, we must be in love.” Or worse- “If I love them, I have to have sex with them.” And how many teenage tragedies are based on that misconception?"

19 weeks

I’m noticing I’m less dizzy lately. Thankfully. I’m hoping it was just a phase. 

It seems like my pregnancy is going by so fast. I can’t believe I’m already basically at the halfway point. It always seemed like other people are pregnant forever, and I’ve been that way for five minutes. I love being pregnant so much. So I wish time would slow down a little so I can savor it more!

I’ve been feeling kicks multiple times, every day now. If I lay down and pay attention, I can see it from the outside. I love watching it. I thought I would be weirded out by kicks before I felt them. But it’s one of the greatest feelings. It makes me happy every time, and I fall more and more in love with each kick. 💖


Went to the doctor today to follow up from the ER visit. All is well. Baby kicked the doppler a few times. It was so weird feeling and hearing it a the same time. He had me get a Panorama blood test, so I’ll know the gender in about ten days. Which is soooo exciting! I can’t wait to finally know. I don’t get my anatomy scan until Sept. 10, so I’m really happy I don’t have to wait that long until I find out.

Ever since I found out I was pregnant, I’ve wanted and hoped for a girl. I still hope and feel that it is, but today I suddenly felt okay if it turns out to be a boy. I’ve worried all this time that I would feel disappointment if it’s a boy. But now I feel good either way. As long as it’s healthy, that’s all that matters at the end of the day.