I’m so bloated today, I look and feel like a beached whale.

15 weeks

How far along: 15 weeks 1 day
This week the baby is the size of: A navel orange
Due Date: Jan 10, 2015
Total weightloss/gain: I’m still pre-pregnancy weight! I thought I had gained 3 pounds but my scale was off according to the doctor.
Maternity clothes: Finally got some. I feel so much more comfortable!
Sleep: I have a lot of trouble falling asleep, but once I do, i’m fine.
Movement: I’m prettyyyy sure I’ve felt a few fluttery blips and bloops. Not 100% positive though.
Food cravings: V8 juice. Walnuts. French fries.
Food aversions: Eggs. Pork.
Symptoms: Dizziness, fainting occasionally, peeing constantly. Headaches.
Mood: Depends on the day. Usually pretty neutral. It’s so easy to make me sad though.
Gender: I don’t know yet! I think I get to find out on Aug 6th.
Names: Girl - Violet Elizabeth. Boy - Gavin Xavier or Damian Alexander
Bellybutton in or out: Innie. pretty sure it’s going to be for awhile.
Stretch marks: None yet.
Feelings towards pregnancy: I looove it. It has it’s not-so-fun moments, but it’s so fun experiencing every little new thing that happens to my body.
Best moment so far: Seeing my little one on screen for the first time and hearing the heartbeat.
What I am looking forward to: Finding out the sex!

Today was kind of crazy. I went shopping and all was fine until we were at the check out counter in Victoria’s Secret. I suddenly felt super dizzy. I crouched down for a minute to gather myself. The cashier freaked out and brought me a donut because she thought my sugar was low. I stood up and took a bite of the donut and the next thing I know, I’m being picked up off the floor by my sister. Apparently I fully collapsed, smacked my face off the ground and the donut went flying across the floor. Everyone in the store was staring and unsure of what to do. I finally was able to get up and walk out. After sitting down for a few minutes I felt totally fine again. It was so embarrassing and hilarious at the same time. I really need to figure out why this is happening lately though.

It’s almost two in the morning

And I am craving unsalted walnuts and v8 juice sooooooo bad right now! I can’t even sleep because of it. This is definitely my first real craving. I thought I had already craved things before this but it was never this intense. I now understand how crazy a pregnancy craving can be! 😵

I’m so sad today.

I miss my love. We barely see each other now and I hardly get to talk to him. I always wake up in the morning hoping I’ll get to see him today, and then I just get more and more sad as the day passes. I feel so alone in this pregnancy lately. 😢


the only domestic instinct my parents have managed to pass on to me is the tendency to hoard multiple plastic bags in another plastic bags despite the fact that I will probably never need this many plastic bags in my adult life

Went to the doctor today.

Since I’ve been so dizzy and fainting. They want to do an EKG on me to make sure everything is okay with my heart, and that most likely everything is fine since all my tests so far have come back good. I also got to hear the baby’s heartbeat on the doppler.
I don’t have an ultrasound until August. I can’t wait to see this little munchkin on screen again. 💜

I’m getting huge so early! I’ve only gained 3 pounds since i’ve been pregnant. This is insane. I love it





Monty Python predicted our generation.

Oh my god

14 weeks.
Didn’t post anything for 13 weeks, mainly because nothing really happened the entire week, other than stress. The past week has been pretty bad. Lots of drama between my boyfriend and my family. I haven’t seen him much lately because he’s staying with his friend for now. Things seem a little tense between us. I’m not sure what’s going to happen but it feels like I keep waiting for a breakup now. Like he’s pushing me away. I’m not sure if it’s because I’m so emotional and clingy lately or if they are valid thoughts..hopefully it’s just me worrying for nothing. I can’t imagine going through this pregnancy without him. He’s like my light. I need that so much.
Other than that, nothing has been happening. Officially in my second trimester now so it should be smooth sailing for awhile as far as symptoms go.

Except today, I got really dizzy suddenly and fainted. I had to be helped to bed. Spent half the day feeling very shaky and dizzy. It eventually went away. My boobs are so bizarre. I’m not used to having them be the size that they are, and veins are starting to show on them. So weird. I’m starting to get linea negra, or the belly line. I was hoping I wouldn’t get that since I’m so pale but oh well. My belly is steadily getting harder. I can’t really tell exactly where my uterus is, but it seems high, like an inch or two below my belly button. Sleeping SUCKS. I use a bunch of pillows but I definitely need to get a pregnancy pillow soon. Its really difficult to find a comfortable position, which I’m sure is only going to get worse as I get bigger.


im fucking cackling

Such a sad, slow day. I miss my love so much. Feels like I’m falling into a bad depression all over again. I don’t have the will to move or eat because of all the shit that happened yesterday. I hate that my family and he can’t get along. 😢